Might be there tomorrow .. who knows?

Hearing your phone ring could mean :
someone is saying hi
someone is missing you
someone wants to see you
someone is checking on you
someone is asking you to do him/her a favor

When I picked the phone ... it was this sad voice ... I said " 3adi ... I know his mom has been in the hospital for so long ... I know eno metbahdel ... he got used to the daily routine he's having."

He asked about mom, asked about my brothers, dodo ... and then he said ... "I just called to say that my mother died at 3 pm today... and I just wanted you to pray for her " ....

I was so quiet ... All what I said was " el baqa2 Lellah " .. and then I was quiet again ... trying to think and come up with anything ... saying to myself " SAY SOMETHING " nothing came out but ... " dad is okay? .... tab el 3aza fain ? "

I just got confused ..nervous ... I mixed words that didn't make any sense to say something appealing... Voila ... ! Quiet again ..

I was so sad ... but at the same time I was thinking about Jannah .. God .. Forgiveness .. the sad feeling started to fade away ...

And then it came back when I kept thinking that his sister " which is my friend" is married .. and so of course she'd get busy w keda ...

bas ... he used to take care of her ... living with her ... mesh 3arfa ... It's just the missing part that is difficult ....

I can't imagine losing anyone who is really dear to my heart ...
Although I lost so many ...

Sunnet el 7ayah I know ...

and I know that this life is a short cut to eternity .... that's why we should work really hard here... I might die tomorrow ! who knows ?


اللهم اغفر لها وارحمها ، وعافها واعف عنها ، لقِّها الأمن والبشرى والكرامة والزلفى ، اللهم إن كانت محسنة فزد في حسناتها ، وإن كانت مسيئة فتجاوز عن إساءتها ، اللهم اغسلها بالماء والثلج والبرد ، نقها من الخطايا كما ينقى الثوب الأبيض من الدنس ، أبدلها أهلاً خيراً من أهلها ، وداراً خيراً من دارها ، وجيراناً خيراً من جيرانها ، اللهم لا تحرمنا أجرها ، ولا تفتنا بعدها ، واغفر لنا ولها