2 days escape ...

Happy Eid :) abl kol 7aga ... Had Enjoyed it before it even started :) thanks to Allah and to you

" Friday December 5, 2008 to Sunday December 8,2008"

- Unforgettable
- Masaken Sheraton
- Mobil
- Kobry 6 october
- store beside el sa2ya
- standing infront of the car when you saw the camera
- Burger King ... el sa7rawy
- 3amaleya estesh-hadeya :p haha
- Quran playing
- Do3a2 el safar
- Tickets to 3alamain.
- Dark road
- Ata3in toro2 story :p
- sweet calmness
- Greek Music
- Car mashya 3aksi
- Getting into Marina 1 waking up el security.
- 4:30 am
- so empty
-On water hotel ...
- Mounir's Villa :)
- Driving through.
- Marina 5
- 5:00 ... when does it call for prayers here?
- Villa in village
- Dust
- Coldness
- Keys
- Water
- Hesitation
- Safe
- three ... one .
- Sad soul with a pure smile that wants to be happy
- praying jama3a ... reciting Quran ... lovely .. calming voice :)
- photos ... sun rise ...
- Didn't even want to sleep ... haha .. " tab ana kaman mesh hanam ... I wanna be here"
- Quiet ... smiles
- Phone rings ... so many times
- Slept " 3al ard "
- So cold
- But warm
- Duhr prayers ...
- Knocking on doors
- " Wakey Wakey " :)

Might be there tomorrow .. who knows?

Hearing your phone ring could mean :
someone is saying hi
someone is missing you
someone wants to see you
someone is checking on you
someone is asking you to do him/her a favor

When I picked the phone ... it was this sad voice ... I said " 3adi ... I know his mom has been in the hospital for so long ... I know eno metbahdel ... he got used to the daily routine he's having."

He asked about mom, asked about my brothers, dodo ... and then he said ... "I just called to say that my mother died at 3 pm today... and I just wanted you to pray for her " ....

I was so quiet ... All what I said was " el baqa2 Lellah " .. and then I was quiet again ... trying to think and come up with anything ... saying to myself " SAY SOMETHING " nothing came out but ... " dad is okay? .... tab el 3aza fain ? "

I just got confused ..nervous ... I mixed words that didn't make any sense to say something appealing... Voila ... ! Quiet again ..

I was so sad ... but at the same time I was thinking about Jannah .. God .. Forgiveness .. the sad feeling started to fade away ...

And then it came back when I kept thinking that his sister " which is my friend" is married .. and so of course she'd get busy w keda ...

bas ... he used to take care of her ... living with her ... mesh 3arfa ... It's just the missing part that is difficult ....

I can't imagine losing anyone who is really dear to my heart ...
Although I lost so many ...

Sunnet el 7ayah I know ...

and I know that this life is a short cut to eternity .... that's why we should work really hard here... I might die tomorrow ! who knows ?


اللهم اغفر لها وارحمها ، وعافها واعف عنها ، لقِّها الأمن والبشرى والكرامة والزلفى ، اللهم إن كانت محسنة فزد في حسناتها ، وإن كانت مسيئة فتجاوز عن إساءتها ، اللهم اغسلها بالماء والثلج والبرد ، نقها من الخطايا كما ينقى الثوب الأبيض من الدنس ، أبدلها أهلاً خيراً من أهلها ، وداراً خيراً من دارها ، وجيراناً خيراً من جيرانها ، اللهم لا تحرمنا أجرها ، ولا تفتنا بعدها ، واغفر لنا ولها

A Whole New World

Never questioned the feelings I had when I listened to what you were saying. It was always there but I just didn't know why I am not taking a serious step to end the thing I started. You told me it's my fault and I know it was. So, as soon as I realised it, my mind couldn't stop thinking.

I saw how hard working people get what they want, without getting into anything I got in. I decided to follow their steps, not just because they are great, but because they are right.

Trying to understand others, waiting for them to complete their sentences so that you get the whole thing said, give excuses and then answer was the approach I loved. I just didn't know how people say awful things without considering other people's feeling...

Yea .. I know " look who is talking , huh ? " .. I myself used to do that... but I appologized because I knew by that time I was not right ... but those people just never felt sorry ... nor regreted saying things that hurt ...

At specific moments you get to experience the real definition of the word " Humans" ... and what happens after that is that you keep looking around at people's faces ... trying to find if they are ever related to that word ...

I found those people ... by all means I am saying " yes I did" ... I just didn't look ath their faces ... but I was also influenced by them ..

I decided to get back to writing ... not because my master's degree requires that ...
not because I just miss writing ...
but because I thought those people deserve something special .. and this blog is what would make me feel good whenever I need a lift :)

Special thanks goes to : The Manual of Warrior of Light ..

" They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel"
Carl W. Buechner